LIFE, THOUGHTS, AND PICTURES DON'T ALWAYS MAKE SENSE TOGETHER
Everything's been fine around here. This is a sort of random list of what I've been doing/thinking/feeling the past six weeks (with random pictures I've been too lazy to upload consistently).
1. Wondering if I'd be better off training to be a pathologist for perhaps my later years. My patients feel at ease with me and my current hospitalist job is beyond complaint but deep down, I'm really a recluse who'd rather be hanging out in the basement with the dead most times.
(I'd be mad too if I had to wear a monster truck shirt all day.)
2. Watching movies that are general common knowledge that I've never seen before, like:
A Beautiful Mind, Vanilla Sky, and Eternal Sunshine on the Spotless Mind ... or what I like to call the mindfuck trilogy. Watch them in a row like I did and you'll know.
The Harry Potter series - well, I have yet to see the second one. It's always rented out.
3. Plotting out pieces of a puzzle in my head regarding this list of suspects.
4. Renting various games from Blockbuster, playing them for fifteen minutes and realizing that either they or I am joyless. Too slow or too repetitive seems to describe every game now.
(Ooseung is traditional Corean when it comes taking pictures -
No smiling.)
5. Going through the usual journaler ambivalence about why am I doing this (the journal) and really, not coming up with the past excuses. But on the other hand, here I am again, already at a page of writing when I was just planning on posting up pictures.
(Small trees = Charlie Brown Christmas and less hassle.)
6. No one ever tells you that having kids is just plain BAD FOR YOUR MARRIAGE, at least in the beginning. It won't necessarily break up the marriage but it's definitely a strain and a test. Less time together, sleep deprivation, role changes, new stresses. I think I've weathered out the hardest part as I am pretty content and have pretty well adjusted to the changes of having two kids now (which is much more difficult than having one). But it's the mother who makes the biggest sacrifice and I am not envious of that.
(That's my brother in the background putting together Sun Su's Thomas the Train set. Sun Su loves
the Thomas the Train scandal they've got going. He can name around 20 of those cash cows.)
7. With beautiful baby Ooseung, I try to imagine what she will look like as a young adult. Sun Su on the other hand, I cannot imagine him any differently than he is now. Both are the most adoreable faces I've ever seen because as a parent you see not just what they are, but what they have been.
(My brother Mark, or Appah Number Two)
8. Sometimes I actually get mad when I think about how vulnerable our little ones are. Not just physically, but psychologically. Things you do and things you don't do affect them like dropping a sand particle in an oyster. But it's the relinquishing of them to a world of uncaring strangers that really gets me. (No, I'm not crazy.)
(Pretty girls: Baby Ooseung, Amy, and cousin Eun Jeong)
9. In general I am lucky to have such a beautiful family. I am lucky that I still find my wife incredibly sexy. I honestly feel sorry for any husbands (and their wives) who might not feel that way about their wives anymore. That would be a sad life to me. It would be nice if she walked around the house naked or wore whatever costumes I would buy, but I can't complain.
10. I've pared down my personal dreams to one now. It's also the shortest point on this list so far.
11. Oh, and ... The LIGER! keeps shitting in my room.
(I have had a little too much to drink here. Like a quarter shot glass.
I wish I could blame this entry on that excuse too.)
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