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don't wish that I had done things different, because it wouldn't be my life."
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Corean Single Male in Germany.
It's Not Easy Being a Girl. (Sept.3 entry -- Yikes!)
INEVITABLE
As some of you might have guessed, Amy and I have had some serious talks about our future together. I was trying to avoid writing about it but eventually it would have been too obvious to hide.
I guess it happens to a lot of couples, maybe even half or more. It's just one of those things that after you find out, you wonder how you missed the signs. Even though Amy and I came to an amicable agreement, hearing that things were already underway on her end - the very next day - was still a bit of a shock.
Our lives will be different.
And what about Sun Su? Sweet unsuspecting Sun Su. Our decision would affect him for the rest of his life. Will he even remember when we were one tiny happy family? Will he blame one of us or feel he is at fault? Will he feel less loved?
He will be like his daddy in this way; I am like my own parents in this way. There's probably some statistic out there saying if it happened to your parents then it is more likely it will happen to you when you get married. I got through it just fine as a child. Maybe I was a little confused at first, but …. Like father like son, I guess.
When I look back on how Amy and I first met, it just makes all of this seem more surreal.
By next year, we'll get that package that will irrevocably alter us forever. The only constant is change.
That's life. Love it or live it.
Sometimes it's just really hard to believe …
... That Sun Su is going to be someone's big brother.What did you think I was talking about? Hahaha.
And it's going to be a GIRL.
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"THERE IS ANOTHER...."
Yeah, so Amy is pregnant, four months so far. We found out the day after we talked about wanting another child. (Seems like everyone is pregnant these days.)
"These are baby's legs," the ultrasound tech pointed out,
"See these three lines here? That's her labia. It's a girl."
Baby Girl, when daddy says show your Corean Pride, that's not what I mean. We're going to have to have a little talk when she comes out.
I'm really really excited. It will be nice having a baby who doesn't have to grab for, knock down, lift up, run to, or pummel everything in his well-developed visual range at age one. It will be a much missed luxury to be able to set a baby down and know that it will be exactly where you left it, ten seconds later. And Corean girl names are so much easier to choose from. I hope.
It will be fun seeing Sun Su interact with this new baby. At church, Amy was trying to get him used to the idea by having him play with a little baby doll.
AJUMMA: "He's good with the doll."
AMY: "Yeah, I'm surprised he's been so gentle with it."
ME: "Um, the doll's head is twisted backwards."
I can't believe I have to wait another five months to see my little baby girl. Better start stocking the basement with Nerf'ed femininja armamentarium.
