More baby talk. If you don't like it, I'll blow your brains out.

A SMILE FROM A VEIL

Can you tell a real entry from just random musings? Is there a difference?

I've been sketching a little more, afraid to finish details or ink anything for fear of tarnishing what might be a good idea, or just revealing another lackluster overdone concept.

Sometimes it's hard to tell who the good guys are and who the bad guys are in my drawings, or at least the concepts in my head. I try to stay away from such distinctions - everyone thinks they are the good guy, for their particular "cause" at least.

X-Men 2 was better than I expected and as great as I had hoped. Even Amy liked it and she hates science fiction or comic book movies. If I had super mutant powers and the world hated my people and children, I would be more inclined to join Magneto's Malcolm X-like faction, as opposed to Xavier's idealistic Martin Luther King world view. I wouldn't be down with blowing everyone's brains to bits though. Unless of course, everyone hated me. In which case, brain soup for everyone. It's probably a good thing I do not have super mutant powers.

The "bad guys" seem to have the hottest girls. If the naked blue skin and cat-like litheness of Mystique wasn't enough, I would have to say her conviction, focus, and fierce loyalty are quite attractive in themselves. Are those qualities so "bad?" None of this flighty "romantic triangle" drama. That shot of blue camel-toe in front of the winter background was pretty nice too.

As I've said in the past, I also would have joined Aliyah's side in Queen of the Damned. This whole idea of co-existing with and protecting people who fear you and want to destroy you just doesn't sit well with me. But maybe that's why those are ideals and movie morals, and not necessarily reality.

Are these dark thoughts exclusive to myself or is this simply the human common denominator that we should try to rise above.

I guess the latter. But then there is always the question of "why bother?"

How much of the answer to that question is what you learn versus what is instinct.

Hot dogs are definitely evil.

I've noticed certain instinctive behaviors in baby Sun Su. Like rubbing your eyes when you are tired. He's never seen Amy or myself do that, yet he does it every time.

Another instinctive behavior about babies is that they look to you for approval and emulate you, even at less than one year of age. It's like they are happier if they see that you are happy, and vice versa. I am wondering if a smile is learned or instinctive. Maybe a little of both, at least the desire to express happiness somehow could be instinctive.

Sun Su was actually able to fall asleep in my arms this week. He usually requires Amy or my mom to rock him to sleep.

That kind of makes you feel like one of the good guys more than any profession or super power ever could. It kind of makes you want to be good as far as your baby or even other babies around the world are concerned, in fact. Things like that can change your dark heart or your whole world view sometimes.

Almost makes you wonder who is learning from who.

Babies make the complicated questions seem simple. At least, for a while.

Little monster.